Tuesday, June 18, 2013
I realize that it has only been four months since I had to join the "widow club".... a club that I never wanted to join! Sometimes, it seems like it was a long time ago, and most other days, it seems like only a few hours ago. It is so hard. When I lost Jennifer, I didn't think that I would ever be able to breathe again, much less function in life.....but I did! I had Pete here with me to get through the long days and hard times. I still miss her every minute of everyday. I still try to keep her memory alive with working on the "Jennifer Project" and doing for others. I know that life goes on, despite of the loss of our loved ones....but it doesn't mean it is easy. I am loving working in the yard and flowers, as Pete and I once did together. I can feel him with me when I am facing hard decisions about doing things. Staying busy is good therapy for me and I now have my craft room which I know that he is so proud that it is finished. My prayer was answered for him to no longer be in pain. He is now pain free and with Jennifer....I could never wish for him to come back the way he was. Once again, I give thanks daily for the promise that I will be with them again! God is good and He is good ALL the time! I will take it one day at a time, and when I look back, I can see that I am making progress....slow, but making progress!