Friday, August 8, 2014

TIME!!!

Where does the time go?  It is so hard to believe that it is already August!  My Dad used to say that the older you get, the faster the time goes by.  He was so right about that! 

I love that my flowers are doing well.  I am not getting as many tomatoes as I had hoped for....but grateful for the ones I have.  This summer has been one for the records.  We have had plenty of rain and the cool weather we have had is just unheard of in the summer in Arkansas!  It has been wonderful!

I miss Pete so much!  We loved this time of year with the flowers and garden and of course, watching all the hummingbirds!  It still just doesn't seem real that he and Jennifer are both gone.  I will miss them always.....am so grateful for the promise of seeing them again!

Mom and Dad loved this time of year too.  I have so many good memories of them!  People that still have their parents are so blessed!

I got my shots again yesterday.....makes me feel bad for about a week, but still so much better than chemo!

Kimberly has been a sewing maniac.....making so many wonderful quilts and gifts!  She is amazing!  Her talent amazes me!  She is so creative.  She is the best sister ever....always there for me.  Of course, she won't let up on the idea of me moving to Little Rock.  She just can't understand that I love it here and am happy here.

I have the pleasure of keeping my neighbor's beautiful baby girl.....Rylee...she is four months old today and she is such a joy to me!  She is the sweetest and happiest baby....always smiling!  Children are the best medicine ever.....for mental and physical health!

Our great-niece, Abbi, is pregnant and expecting in the Spring!  We keep her close in our prayers....praying she will have a healthy baby.  She is very excited about the baby....I just don't think she really realizes the responsibility she now has. 

I still love my card making.....truly the best therapy ever for me!  I can go into the craft room and lose my worries. 

Although I have sad and down days at times, I am very grateful for what I have!  God is good and He is good ALL the time!

Sunday, May 11, 2014

MOTHER'S DAY 2014!

I miss my Mom each and everyday....always will until that wonderful day, when I see her again!  I don't know why this year seems like it has pulled on my heart strings more than in previous years....Kimberly said this year has been harder for her too.  You just never get over the void in your life without your Mother.  I called her every morning.....always!  Loved hearing her sweet voice answering me when I asked her what she was going to do that day....saying, same ole, same ole!  She was so sweet, funny and loving.  She loved cooking for others and she loved this time of year, planting flowers and watching them grow!  She loved me unconditonally and was always there for me! 

I hope that everyone that is still blessed with having their Mother, will ket them know how much they love them....not just today on Mother's Day....but everyday!

Monday, April 21, 2014

EIGHT YEARS!!

It doesn't seem possible that my precious Jennifer has been gone eight years today!  Sometimes, it feels like it was yesterday.  I miss her so much!  I miss her beautiful smile, the sound of her laugh, cooking for her, listening to her hopes and dreams.....I miss everything about her.  I learned so much from her in her 28 short years here....she was so compassionate and never judged others.  She was my light and joy.  I would never want her back here....knowing now that she is healthy and happy and with her Dad and other loved ones.  I will always miss her and will always try to keep her memory alive.  She touched the hearts of many.  I am so grateful for the promise that I will be with her again!

Friday, March 28, 2014

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, JENNIFER!

It is so hard to believe that my baby would have been 36 years old today, harder to believe that she has been gone for eight years.  I miss her every second of every day!  She was truly the light of my life and she touched so many lives of others. 

When you lose a child, you think that you will never be able to breathe again....you think that your world has just stopped.....which it seems like it did.  With the love and grace of God, you get the strength to go on....knowing that it comes from Him!  You are so grateful for the promise that you will be with them again.

I do my best to keep her memory alive.  We still have the Jennifer Project in her honor.  I know that she would be pleased that we are doing this.  ACH was such a huge part of her life....she would love knowing that we are trying to make hospital stays a little brighter for the kids.  I am still sending sunflower seeds each year to be planted in her memory.....I cannot see a sunflower, without thinking of her.

Happy Birthday, Jennifer!

Thursday, February 27, 2014

WINTER IS NOT OVER!

We were teased with a taste of Spring!  You could just feel it and hear it!  It didn't last long, and we are having another round of cold weather.  I know after talking to my relatives in Illinois, I have nothing to complain about....they are still having single digit temperatures.....can't imagine having that kind of weather for an extended period of time!

Spring was one of mine and Pete's favorite times of the year!  We could sit on the porch for hours and talk about our dreams for the garden and flowers and of course, the anticipation of the return of our beloved hummingbirds....those little guys kept us entertained for hours.

I miss him so much....always....but there are certain times, it just hits you like you have been run over by a truck.....and you never know for sure what triggers those feelings or when they are going to come.  With Jennifer's birthday and the anniversary of her death coming up, these feelings just seem to be stronger.  I always had Pete to help get me through the bad days.  I just take it day by day and do what I can to keep their memory alive and to do something for others.  Kimberly and I have been working hard on items for the Jennifer Project bags....so glad that we are still keeping this project alive after eight years.  Jennifer spent so much time in the hospital, I know that she would love this project.   I will choose a bush or tree and plant it in her memory. 

Spring will soon be here and I am looking forward to the dark and dreary days of winter turning into beautiful colors and sounds.  God is good and He is good ALL the time!

Wednesday, February 12, 2014

2 of #48 WALKS

Since my first walk on this challenge, I have been pretty much homebound because of the ice and snow!  My driveway going up the hill is still ice and snow covered.

I still have to walk using a cane.  When I go grocery shopping, I always ride in one of the electric carts.  I hate doing this, but get tired easily when walking, and don't want to take a chance of falling!  Yesterday, my sweet nephew...Bobby...came over and took me to the grocery store and to do some errands.  When I got to the grocery store, I decided that I would not use the electric cart, choosing to walk and push the buggy instead.  I know that this doesn't sound like a big deal to most people, but it has been a couple of years since I have walked while grocery shopping.  These are baby steps for sure, but thanks to Alison's inspiration and encouragement, I walked!  YAY ME!

Our weather is going to be gorgeous and warm this weekend.  I will be under the bridge after church, helping feed the homeless.  I hope to get in another walk while there.

Taking baby steps, but trying!

Sunday, February 2, 2014

ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY!


It is hard to believe that it has been a year since I lost Pete!  At times, it seems like it was yesterday, then at other times, it seems so much longer.  The days turn into weeks and then before you know it, a year has gone by.  I miss him everyday.....when I get up in the morning, all day long and when I go to bed at night.  42 years is a long time to share your life with someone, and I am so grateful for those years....there were good times, as well as bad times....but we got through them.  I will cherish those memories forever and be ever so grateful that I will see him again.  I have peace in knowing that he is no longer miserable trying to get through the days, feeling so bad...but he kept trying.  He is now healthy and happy and is with our precious Jennifer and other loved ones.  How could I not feel at peace knowing that?

I have learned so much this past year, and am cetainly still in the learning phase with so much more to learn.  I have learned to do things for myself, that I never thought I could learn to do.  I have learned to be able to be alone and not let that upset me (I know that with God, I am never alone)....I am ever so grateful for my sister, Kimberly, who is my rock and my precious friends that help me get through the rough times.  I am grateful to have my sister-in-law, Barb....she became a member of this widow's club just two months before me.  It is good to be able to cry on the shoulders of each other and understand how it is.  I am trying hard to strenghten my relationship with God and to study His word more and have a better understanding.  I have taken on a challenge to get out and walk a little...which isn't easy, but as I have learned most things worth doing are not easy.  I am sure that with each walk, it will get easier.

Yes, today is a sad day to remember, but I am grateful for the memories.....they can't be taken away.  Pete was such a good hearted and caring person. 

Tell your loved ones that you love them and make sure they know that you mean it!