Friday, August 30, 2013


I can hardly believe that it is FINALLY here!  Tomorrow the Razorbacks have their first game of the season!  It seemed like waiting for Christmas to come!  But today, is Razorback Eve!  I love the Hogs and all the excitement!  The University of Arkansas has the best fans ever!

Tomorrow will certainly be a bittersweet day for me.  I am happy that the game is televised and I will be calling the Hogs!  It will certainly be a hard and sad day also, not having Pete here to watch the game with me.  We looked forward to watching college football on Saturdays, especially our Hogs!  We were both happy and excited over this season, having a new coach and hopes for a great year!  I will so miss him, not being here with me.  Saturdays are hard days for me was Saturdays, that we always did our errands in the morning, and it was on a Saturday that God called him home!  Saturdays will never be the same for me again, but neither will any other day.  Life has changed!  I just have to know that I will see him again and I cherish the memories of him.  I am sure that he and Jennifer, along with my Mom and Dad will be calling the Hogs from Heaven!

I am grateful that my sweet neighbors are Hog fans too, and that Brandi and Jarod are going to come down and watch the game with me.  Kim would have come over, but she would have been miserable....she is NOT a Razorback fan or a sport fan at all. 

Yes, tomorrow will be different, but I will get through it and will be calling the Hogs.....WOOOO PIG SOOOOOIE RAZORBACKS! 

Monday, August 5, 2013


I am so thankful for having such good nephews!  Bobby has helped me so much, when I need it...he even knew where the water turn off for the house was, when I didn't know.  David and Sherrie came over Saturday morning and worked all day weedeating, weeding the flower beds and cutting brush.  I mowed.  The yard looks great!  Wish that it would stay this way or that I could learn to use the weedeater!  I appreciate all their help so much.  This is what David and Sherrie do for a living and they sure know how to get the job done! 

I feel bad having to depend on others to help me so much, but I sure do appreciate it.  Pete has been gone six months....just doesn't seem possible.  Sometimes, it seems like it was just yesterday.  I have learned to do a lot and I am still learning. 

Kimberly still gives me a hard time about not moving to Little Rock.  I love it here....this is my home!  I love having the mowing and things to keep me busy.....I love having my craft room where I can go and lose my worries!  I love watching the birds, squirrels, rabbits and other animals that come to visit.  I love having my dogs here!  I cannot imagine being in an apartment....I guess I have adapted to the country life too well.  It is quiet and peaceful here,  I have neighbors and am close to town.  I feel close to Mom, Dad, Pete and Jennifer here.  As long as my health stays good and I can get around, and this is God's plan for me, I plan on staying here!  Yes, I have had some challenges....but that would be anywhere I lived.  It is good for me to have things to do to occupy my mind and body!  I am so grateful for all that I have and appreciate it so much.  Had it not been for all the wonderful people that helped us so much after the fire, I know that I wouldn't have been able to stay here.  God has the plan for us all and He is always in control.  I have my faith and trust in Him and I know that He is good and He is good All the time....and He is good here at the Eagle's Nest!  I am so thankful for Him!!

Friday, August 2, 2013


As of last week, I have been fighting cancer for fourteen years!  It has been a roller coaster for sure.  I know that I have become a much stronger person because of it and know how to appreciate and cherish the little things in life.  As a friend of mine, who is also a survivor said, I wouldn't give up the pain for the things I have gained through this experience.  I trust God's plan for my life and am trying my best to walk closer with Him each day.  I try to let my loved ones know how much I love them and how much they mean to me.  I try to be a friend to those in need and try to help those that need help.  Feeding the homeless once a month, makes me even more aware of how truly blessed that I am. 

Pete has been gone for six months today!  It just doesn't seem possible.  I miss him so very much.  42 1/2 years is a long time to be with someone, and then it is gone.  Like I have said before, when I lost my precious Jennifer, I didn't think that I would even be able to breathe again, much less keep on going.  Pete was here with me, and we helped each other through our grief.  I miss her so much, just like it was yesterday.  I try to keep her memory alive by honoring her in any way that I can, like through the "Jennifer Project" for the kids at the hospital....I know that she would love this.  I have really surprised myself about the independence I have gained since losing hasn't been easy, but I am getting there.  I love mowing...just wish that I wasn't so afraid of mowing the hilly places...still afraid of falling off the mower.  This is getting a little better, but have accepted the fact that if I can't do it, I will just have grassy hills LOL!  I know that he is proud of me for what I have learned to do for myself.  We take for granted all the things that our spouses do.  I so wish that I had paid more attention to the things that he always took care of and had learned more....little things like where the cut off for the water to the house is....thank goodness that a call to my nephew, Bobby, solved that mystery for me.  I am learning!  I thank God for all that I have, for my sister and family, my wonderful friends, my church family and of course, my furry daughters!  I have bad days, that is for sure....never know when they are coming or what brings them on....just have to keep on going.
I am glad that Barb and I have such a close relationship....hate that it got closer because of us both being new members to the "widow club", but so grateful to have someone that truly understands.  I think that sometimes people just don't understand how hard it is.....and I am glad that they haven't had to lose their loved one.

I still proclaim that God is good and He is good ALL the time!  He hears my prayers, knows my hurt and He is always in control and there for me!  He has the plan for each of us.  I will continue to have a closer walk with Him and give thanks for what I have!