It is hard to believe that it is already November. I love this time of year, the beautiful colors of fall and the much welcomed cooler temperatures!
Last Friday, Kimberly, Missy, Laura and I went to Petit Jean Mountain.....enjoying all the beautiful eye candy that God gives us to enjoy....the colors of the trees were breath taking. We had lunch at the Mather Lodge and all had a good visit. It was a perfect day, allowing us to ride in Kimberly's new car (FiFi), with the top down.
The coming of the Holiday Season exacerbates my feelings of longing for Pete to still be here with me....it magnifies the loneliness that I feel without him. It is so very had to believe that he has been gone for nine months....42 years with someone is a long time, then for it to just be gone. We loved sitting on the porch every morning with our coffee, even if we were wrapped up in a blanket. I cherish those special memories of us sharing our dreams together and making plans of what we wanted to do in the yard and things. I know that it isn't our plan at all....that God is always in control and that He has the plan for each of us. The Holidays will never be the same, but then again, none of my days will ever be the same. Kimberly is on call this year for Thanksgiving....I always cook a big Thanksgiving dinner here. This year I will cook at Kimberly's and Laura is going to come for dinner. On Christmas, we are blessed that our angel of a friend, Michelle, is going to let us stay at her condo in Destin, Florida! Jennifer and I loved going to Destin....I haven't been since she passed away seven years ago. Again, it will be different not being at home on Christmas.....I have always said that I would want to always be at home on Christmas.....life changes and so does your thinking, I guess. I know that Jennifer and Pete wouldn't want me to stay at home, and they will be happy knowing I will be on the beach. I didn't choose the changes that have been made in my life. I will accept them, because I don't have another choice. I am grateful to have such a wonderful sister to share my life with and so many amazing friends! I get by with a little help from my friends, the love of family and friends, and the unfailing love of Jesus Christ! God is good and He is good ALL the time!