Yesterday was a hard day for me. I was happy that I was able to go to church....we had an awesome service on commitment and also had communion. I love Fellowship North so much...they are like my family. When it was time to fill out our commitment cards, there were boxes to check for either single or married. I know in my heart, I will always be married to Pete....just as I will always be a Mother to Jennifer. When asked how many children I have, I always say that I have one daughter that passed away. Now, when asked if I am married or single, I will say married and write the word "widow"! I don't like this word, and never thought that it would apply to me. I guess in our minds, we think that it won't happen....but it does, in God's time and in His plan for each of us.
I had such an empty feeling when coming home yesterday....knowing that Pete would not be here when I came home. I miss him so much. I always will. We were married when I was 18 years old...a long time ago! I have my memories of him and the dreams we shared. I am ever so grateful for the promise that I will see him again!
I am sure that I will have many more hard days....just have to take it one day at a time....and know that I have my family, friends, and God to get me through them. I am very grateful that I have my furry little daughters to keep me busy and entertained!